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Gah, where to BEGIN? Well, for one, if I haven't said it already, I passed all 3 of my last semester's courses with As and my parents pitched in to do the impossible and get me a Wii, which I am very happy about. And I had a very nice Christmas and New Years, and of course, a new semester in college. Dang, Calculus is H-A-R-D! And only the first week has gone by! And I have soem class for writing stuff in the workplace and Physics....@_@ makes my head spin... And I cannot believe I haven't changed the journal layout still....but I will soon, I SWEAR ^^;;;....
But my primary reason for writing here is, I have a dilemma.
See, I kinda have a social group meeting this week, and there's this kid I've practically known all my years of grade school (EVERY SINGLE ONE) whome, I should be honest, DID NOT GET ALONG WELL WITH AT ALL. Oh and he'll be in the Social Group this week. I'm having mixed feelings about all this. Although I'm PRETTY SURE I heard the group manager say that after this, she'll be splitting the groups up into one of all girls and one of all guys, so....I just never thought I'd be seeing him again so soon ;_; AND I'M FREAKING OUT
Eh...Yeah. Maybe I should also start a writing journal and a few RP journals here...Gee so much to do, so little time!
- Mood:
distressed - Music:Yakety Sax (don't even ask lol)
1.) Just passed this semester with A's in all my classes (incl. Programming, which I got an F on the last time I took it)!
2.) I am actually gonna get a Nintendo Wii for Christmas!! if only for WiiFit .___.
3.) Just had my wisdom teeth removed yesterday. The first few hours of recuperation were awful, and today, it still hurts much..
- Mood:
sore
- Mood:
angry
- Mood:
sick - Music:Kanon Wakeshima - Suna no Oshiro (Vampire Knight Guilty ED, TV Size)
So uh, I feel I've been working MUCH MUCH harder this college semester. My last college semester I got both A's, and good gosh I wore myself out yesterday working on Trig problems, and I AM READY TO TAKE ON THE WORLD BABEH.
Of course, I kinda don't lurk forums so much anymore cause there are so much n00bs and tards and of course, trolls, and it just gets to me. I lurk the LJ communities I watch though, and Youtube and other sites quite a bit.
Also, if I get a B or an A on this upcoming test, Mom will let me buy a Nintendo DS or Sony PSP game (she won't allow buying of PS2 games yet, that's the only actual CONSOLE I have. Yup, still too poor to afford a Playstation 3, Xbox 360, Wii (THOSE PRICES KEEP RISING LIKE CRAZY DAM
Meh, I should call it a day soon.
Also, I got a new laptop with Vista. It's nice but it crashes sometimes e.e;
- Mood:
accomplished - Music:Gurren Lagann OP1 - Sorairo Days
- Mood:
hot - Music:Nana Mizuki - Deep Sea
Sorry, just a lil rant. Now how am I supposed to get this work done?! argh..
also, I'll be needing a new layout soon...
- Mood: annoyed
- Music:Hatsune Miku - melody (dot) exe
Also, need to see some movies. Iron Man IS A MUST, but I also wanna see The Forbidden Kingdom (Jachie Chan AND Jet Li in the SAME FILM..whoa) and perhaps Speed Racer (Epic Live-Action Adaptation of a retro anime is BOUND TO BE EPIC)
yosh
- Mood:
energetic - Music:KOTOKO - Sociometry
I don't know how old she was, but I knew she was dying ever since I got word of her critical condition. I wanted to get help for her online by describing her condition, but my mother said no. If she had let me get help, Grandma would still be here!
But alas, what's done is done. I wanted her to stay alive as long as possible....to get news that I had graduated from college, that I had gotten the best paying job, that I had a good husband and children...but I guess it just wasn't God's will was it.
In a way, I feel responsible for her death. I didn't pray for her this morning, and I didn't get to say "I love you, Grandma" or anything like that. If I had Mom on the phone (Mom is in PR) and had her say "I love you, I'm sorry, and goodbye" to Grandma, I would know she would die happy. But no...I feel so terrible.
And now, I have a poem for my dear Grandmother.
Dear Grandmother,
I greatly regret I did not get to say farewell.
I regret also that you did not get to live long enough to know that I had graduated, and that I would prosper. I'll bet that broke your heart.
But, I will forever treasure the times we spent together, even if they were few.
I hope you will too.
I thank you for showing me what it is to be a good girl and be caring.
I deeply regret that last Christmas was the final Christmas we spent together, and know that I will forever love you.
I hope you will always love me and watch over me.
Say hi to Grandpa for me in heaven, okay?
Love always,
Your dearest Granddaughter
...I need to be alone now. .____.;
- Mood:
crushed - Music:Lia - Ana (CLANNAD Insert Song)
But alas, my mom headed to PR to take care of my grandma, and she's been there for about two weeks now. Also, ARGH, I'm all cranky and I am craving chocolate. And when I say cranky, oh man, am I CRANKY. It's not my time of the month soon is it...?
Also, replaying Xenosaga episode I. That game is SO MUCH WIN, yo.
- Mood: cranky
- Music:HIGH AND MIGHTY COLOR - Ichirin no Hana
THRICE.
And I heard that Kingdom Hearts: Birth by Sleep was cancelled. APRIL FOOL PRANK
- Mood:duped
Bad?
Why?
MY MOM DIDN'T LET ME BUY CRISIS CORE. WHUT.
I don't understand! I haven't asked her in a long time to buy me a video game -- for PSP, no less! Since I'm in college...but that's not the reason.
She just happened to glance at the back cover and saw the following contents within the Teen rating:
"Blood
Mild Language
Mild Suggestive Themes
Violence"
SHE LOOKED PAST THE TEEN RATING!!! ARGH! M-RATED GAMES HAVE WORSE STUFF THAN THAT!
Teen = 13+
Mature = 17+
how could she ignore that!?
She's let me buy games just LIKE that which had a Teen rating!! examples:
Final Fantasy X-2
(Suggestive themes, violence)
Xenosaga I
(Blood and Gore, violence)
Xenosaga II (it was hard but she actually gave in for this one):
(Blood and Gore, Lang, Suggestive themes, violence)
Valkyrie Profile Lenneth
(uhh I think it had Use of Alcohol, Language, Violence, what else...?)
The only other time she did NOT let me buy a T-rated game was for the first 4 .hack games, for ONE thing: "Mature Sexual Themes". I was actually expecting that sort of reaction from her for those. But this....! Why now? You let me buy games like that before...
What can I do?
I'm working hard, Mom is cutting meh some slack for Spring Break but not too much...heh Lots of stuff -.-;
Maybe later, I'll post something extra X_X
- Mood:
bored - Music:UVERworld - D-tecnolife
- recreational computer use (which means I may not update my LJ so often)
- TV
- anything that distracts until I finish classes on Apr 28....and the grounding will reset when I resume classes at any time >_<
I'll specify later...
- Mood: crushed
- Music:HALCALI - Tip Taps Tip
Busy with college and stuff.
For starters, my main comp just got a memory upgrade to 1.75 GB, so it's muuuuch faster ;)
Nowadays I hang out at KHInsider forums (Sn: Sophia Esteed); Narutofan forums (SN: Kurumie Tsurashima) and Gaia Online (sn: Kioko-tan). I also just signed up for IMVU but haven't installed the program yet. .___.
I studied loooong and hard for my next College Algebra test. I hope I don't PHAIL like I did the last time.
Also, I have indefinitely postponed all of my fanfiction writing activities. I may write a crack!fic sometime though xD
Hopefully, thanks to my memory upgrade, all my AMV projects and whatnot will come around much earlier, guaranteed ;)
grr my train of thought crashed....heh heh CRASHED, get it? ;D Ahhh I'll post the rest some other time...
- Mood:forgetful
But I finished mah first college semester!!!
BELIEVE IT!!!zomg I think Dub!Naruto has influenced meThe deal is, I'll be goin to PR for Xmas like usual. Mom is buying a select few gamez (DS, PSP, one GBA). She HAS given me hope tho.... I CAN get an Xbox 360 + games, GameCube + games (Wii is too rare right now), or more PS2 gamez IF and only if I get straight A's, B's or a combination of the 2 in semesters that follow!!! I'm not sure I'll count for this semester since my Math scores are pretty much bad X____X But I WILL make it count for mroe semesters!
Gah, I have so much stuff to do. *looks up random games for future buying and prints out random stuff, etc etc*
- Mood:
thankful - Music:The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya - Hare Hare Yukai
On a more positive side, I created my first community!!! For fandom pairings. Canon, fanon, crack, yaoi, yuri, het you name it...expect more communities from me xD No icon communities yet though cuz I phail at icons.... /sob < --- Another RO emote! Gawd I NEED to pay.....for that AND Stopzilla's spyware removal feature (don't ask....long story)
- Mood: annoyed
- Music:MELL - Red Fraction
Anyway, tomorrow's my Psychology final exam. I'm sure to ace it ;) like I did the last 2...PERFECT SCORE!
What should I do next...?
- Mood:indecisive
- Music:Eiko Shimamiya - Higurashi no Naku Koro Ni
......but I got sooooooooooo hooked on the MMORPG known as Ragnarok Online (http://iro.ragnarokonline.com). Pain to dl the program, but the play is MORE than worth it. Alas, my *SO-CALLED* 15-day trial ended yesterday (maybe I set the trial to 45 hrs or something). Point is, I'll need my debit card or cash payments to continue playing (which I'm having trouble convincing my parents about). Dang it. >___<;
Anyway, graduation was GREAT! My aunt came along, and I saw some friends, including Shannon (senior), DIana (senior) and even Angelica (not a senior). I was kinda crying when the vocal ensemble performed, but the ending cheered me up! I know I'll be able to at least stay in contact with them. ^^
In the meantime, I think I'll play some *OFFLINE* games....
- Mood: bouncy
- Music:Yukari Tamura - Spiritual Garden (Magical Girl Lyrical Nanoha A's ending)
